Friday, March 30, 2012

Eclipse


A ROUGH DRAFT!  

Eclipse
The moon and the sun cannot align like they used to.
An angle, a degree, is always inaccurate.
The way the moon relaxed under the sun’s glory
Or the way the sun embraced the moon’s inadequate size.
And how desire filled long galaxy gaps
But now the moon is unidentified under a shadow 
and eclipsed by the sun. 

Sunday, February 26, 2012

To feel New.


The number of bricks in the wall wasn’t an even number,
So I painted a fresh blue streak on the cracked and dry white canvas,
Because I thought it was easy to be new.
But what’s new when the new became so old.
So I picked off all the scales off the trout in the pond,
And they stuck to my fingers like I wish you could,
And maybe I’d get your attention,
So I wouldn’t have to be new.

But NEW is in the magazines the TV and in our heads,
New is good, New is better
So I painted it all blue,
And my fish died.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Locked- Urban Legend

Well, here is my Urban Legend:

Locked
March March March! Slam! Lock! Her ponytail swayed side to side as her black combat boots clapped together when she hopped onto her pink blossom comforter on her pink bed in her pink room. It matched the long red cardinal colored roses in the polished see through glass vase that sat on top of the wooden cabinet she used to block her door from being opened before she upgraded to a lock. Last year her room was purple and the year before that was baby blue. The decision for next year’s color was still undecided by the rest of the designing club.
Knock Knock Knock. Steel Knuckles banging against the mahogany door to give Rebecca the sign to open it and apologize for slamming it and babysit her little 11 year old brother, Mark while she takes a “quick” stop at the grocery or do her turn of washing the dishes for braking the car handle while slamming it, or clean the mess she made in front of the TV, or - the list goes on… With that Rebecca wisely responded,
“I’m doing homework. Don’t bother me! That’s why I keep getting C’s in History! It’s all your fault mom!” She put her ear phone buds back in her ear canal and waited until her mother walked away before she started rummaging the keys on her keyboard. She hated to make Cindy, the leader of the designing club wait for her response. She took out her cherry ear buds once again for the exact purpose of hearing her mother’s keys jingle a tune with each other while she left the house. Roaring Engine. Beeping for backing up. Brake, then U turn and she was gone like the happiness in her family. That was her goodbye. She believed that the walls where made so thin purposely so that everyone could hear everything Rebecca did when they couldn’t it see it when her door was closed, which it almost never was. Her parents remodeled the house 3 years ago and Rebecca managed to convince them to get no windows in her room. She was only left with a small skylight. With relief she took out the itchy ear phones and blasted a river of electronic tunes and notes to wash away the rules and responsibilities that were stained all over the house.
            Her young brother, who she considered The Annoying Next Door Neighbor, came to complain once again. Mother was the knocker. Annoying Next Door Neighbor was the whiner. Dad was just Dad. He kept quiet and let her do what she needed to do mostly. She liked him best.
Rebecca lived in her room and only her room like a prisoner. She only walked out of her cage when she knew everyone was in their own. If someone found her, they would keep her there. Her parents played 21 questions afterschool and before school gave her the instructions on how to play it.  Her favorite was the quiet game.
Her perfect green eyes wanted to be blue and her dirty blonde hair was tempted to bleach itself. She was perfect at being imperfect. She walked home everyday to avoid being in the car with her mother for exactly 3 minutes and 53 seconds. She came home and followed her routine of March March March! Slam! Lock! She sat on her bed with her books untouched in her backpack and her computer opened on ichat. So busy with crush updates and gossip, an isolated flower petal fell from her rose onto the dusty cabinet surface. Brown thin lines outlined the petal veins, leaving it only to rot.                             CutieCindy45: Did your mom find out?                                                                                                Rebecca58: HAHA! No! She’s stupid.                                                                                             Knock Knock Knock!
“Dinner, come out,” she spoke softly like she was talking to an unwanted puppy. She waited for the response that never arrived. 
“Open it up Rebecca! Enough is enough!” The knocker yelled.
“Mom go away! I’m not hungry! Bye!”
“I am taking away this lock if you don’t open this door,” she started to yell as she twisted the knob back and forth.
“You’re so annoying!”
“We are having dinner and you are coming out,” she found a hanger and shoved it through a key hole, trying to unlock it.
Rebecca jumped off from her bed and stood right next to her door, holding it back like a lion protecting its cubs. A crimson rose petal fell onto Rebecca’s red checks blending the two colors to create a bloody mess. Rebecca wrapped her thin fingers on the brass knob and turned it open. She swung the door open all the way. Glanced at her mother and slammed it back into her proud face. Her mother walked away, furious.
            The next morning Rebecca locked her room, walked out of the house and to school and walked up to Cindy.
“That was a close one! She almost opened my door and could have seen my computer.”
“That party was worth it anyway!” she giggled like a robot. The day was over in a heartbeat and she returned to her cage. March. Slam. Lock. Four Rose Petals gone. They lay all over the top like a vermillion carpet hiding the dust.
The Annoying Next Door Neighbor pounded against her wooden door.
“Rebecca open up! She’s gonna take your lock! She’s gonna take it! You’ll have to keep it open!” he sang.
“Shut Up!” she rolled her eyes as she walked to her desk to take out her laptop. It wasn’t there. A sudden panic ran up and down Rebecca’s spin like two children on a seesaw. She zoned out until she noticed the knocker behind her door. She didn’t knock on the door. She put an unknown key in the hole and walked in. Leaving the door a crack open.
“Tomorrow, there is not going to be a lock. Tonight, you stop given your parents attitude. You’re grounded because of that party. You don’t own laptop anymore. I’m not doing you favors any longer. You figure this out on your own. When you want to be in this family again let me know when you’re ready Rebecca.”
The door had never been open for this long before.
“Get out of my room. I didn’t do anything wrong! Get out!” Rebecca’s heart almost stopped. Her voice stuttered between each word. As her mother walked away, short clicks from her heels marked each second that shortened Rebecca’s life. Her mother left, slamming the door, another rose petal fell, leaving a large rotting pile. She spent the rest of the night in her bed thinking about how things used to be. The annoying next door neighbor once long ago was her brother. Her dad used to care and her mother as well. But that’s all over. She didn’t care much, at least she tried. No one called her in for dinner that night. She ate her Halloween candy in her room. Alone.
            The sun flashed light into Rebecca’s eyes making them squint into CD slits. She couldn’t have breakfast because she needed to avoid the kitchen, so she just walked out starving. When she came home, on her way to her room, she never noticed the fist and knuckle marks on the other side of the door. This was the first time she took a second to look at the door from the other side. It looked like a different door. Not the same one she looked at when she heard the knocker. These marks were made by strength. People tried to help her to get out. She glanced for approximately 1.9 of a second and chills traveled through her when she heard the keys jingle her least favorite song. The door opened and Rebecca ran in her room slamming the door, harder than usual. The lock was still there. The cabinet shook as if there was an earthquake, and 3 more petals fell off. One left to go. Her computer was gone and now, she was left with nothing. She looked through her skylight. The air looked so peaceful and calm. She wished that she could sit on one of those cotton clouds and travel away with it. It was open and free. She wanted to leave with the loose wind, unknown of what would come to her next. Just then, she heard The Annoying Next Door Neighbor set the table. Setting the forks and spoons so clumsy on the china plates, she could hear every little thing so clearly. She stood up and put her ear against the door. Her mother and father were laughing at Mark’s funny faces. They sounded so inviting, she wanted to be there. Rebecca gained the courage to unlock her room. She walked up so bravely and put her smooth hands on the ice cold metal only to figure out that the door was still locked. She tried and tried to unlock it. She couldn’t open the door. A mechanism of picks, plugs, and pins were jammed.  Her brave little moment faded away into the fear of being alone for dinner once again. She pounded and pounded against the door. She heard her family eating, enjoying themselves, ignoring the loud disruptions upstairs. She shrieked in panic, yelled and screamed and everyone ignored her.                       
 After 15 minutes she gave up. At first she thought the knocker had done it or the annoying next door neighbor. She sat on her bed and waited for the sound of her mother walking upstairs to say goodnight to Mark. Once she did, she started pounding again.
“MOM! Help mom! I’m stuck! Please!”
“Rebecca, this isn’t the time to play. Go to bed.”
“No! mom just open my door!” Rebecca started to yell so loud her throat became a bright red shade.
“I don’t want to help you. Go to bed you have school tomorrow! Don’t make me call your father, now goodnight.”
“MOM! You did this! I am locked here because of you! I hate you!” Rebecca said hopelessly, she spent the next night with her eye against the lock, trying to open it. The next morning, the smell of banana bread and decomposing flowers made a mixture and invaded the air. Rebecca was still unable to open her door. She laid her back against the door, her arms locked together; she placed her head between her knees and began to cry. For not having real friends or a family, she couldn’t find herself. The knocker had already gone to work and the annoying next door neighbor was at school, the only person left was dad.
“Dad!” Rebecca yelled over and over again. Her father had arrived, cranky and tired from last night’s commotion.
“What is it this time Rebecca?”
“Dad! I’m locked! I cannot get out! I locked myself in! Help me!”
“I cannot possibly understand why you did this to yourself,” he muttered as he twisted the metal right and left and back to right.  After hours of trying, her father looked for a lock smith around town. None existed. He called the Paramedics. The knocker arrived home to the sight of red and yellow circling lights in the drive way, the smell of old people, and men in black uniforms. She now understood that this was serious.
They looked around the old house from the outside and there were no windows in Rebecca’s room. They cut up the small skylight, however it was no use. It was too small to fit her through. They thought about braking down the door, however it was not screwed on like a regular door, it was held by a special type of cement. It was glued and locked in place. The paramedics eventually left and Rebecca stayed wide awake to watch the last weak rose petal fall so gracefully, on the red mountain below it. She folded her palms and cried into them. Her tears left traces down her neck.
She was the judged who sentenced herself prison. Her parents were able to give her food down the skylight and thought they had it all figured out. They were very wrong of course. You see, one gloomy day, Rebecca was in her room and never came to the skylight. Her family had no choice other than to cut the walls to get her. Once they did, all the unnecessary debris filled the still air to reveal that she wasn’t there. Two days later after searching, they found her dead rotting body in her closet covered with the thorns running along the green stems that remained from her rose. 


                                                    
Many cases just like Rebecca’s occurred again. Exactly one year from when she locked herself, a boy 58 miles from her died in his closet the moment he locked his door from his parents. Another next year and the next. AND THE NEXT. . . 

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Poetry on Poetry


Making an intangible object perform all five senses,
An ability to explode emotions onto physical paper,
Making that old tree into a kingdom,
Full of ants as peasants,
And the big bossy boughs fire their employees as they fall off one by one,
Into the unemployment line,
Did you sigh in awe when Bukowski and his mockingbird
crawled into your mind?
When it was getting closer with each word,
Could you relate to when Dickinson’s isolated heart wrote written words of love and 
entered yours?